coming and going at the same time

How should we visualize the phase you're in? Are you coming back home after a harrowing journey to the abyss? Or are you about to launch a quest straight into the heart of the dawn's blinding promise?
Paradoxically enough you're doing both. You're coming and going at the same time. You're graduating from an ancient lesson and beginning a new course of study.
Hints of the future are mingled with the last gasps of the past.